Testing, testing

Alternate title for this post: I haven't had sex in a month.

Here's an update from our visit to the RE and what tests we've done since.  We met with our RE at the end of November and really liked her.  We just sat and chatted with her, talked about our histories, her philosophies on making a baby, etc.  While reviewing my history, she claimed I was "pretty boring", medically speaking (obviously she wasn't talking about me personally, because I'm a hoot).  Things got more interesting for her with my husband, who has high cholesterol, high blood pressure and drinks pretty regularly.  This conversation actually gave me pause because it was the first time I considered that he might be the problem and not me.  This is concerning to me because I'm not sure how he would handle that.  He's a pretty typical guy and keeps his feelings bottled up and I worry this could cause him to shut down.  I'm trying not to think about it too much since I don't actually know anything.  Also, I would rather him have a problem than not be able to find a problem at all.  Unexplained infertility scares the bejesus out of me.

But, we have a plan for now:  we were scheduled for 3 day blood work, a 10 day  blood work and ultrasound, sperm analysis and an HSG for me.  I did the 10 day tests, but missed the 3 day due to snow.  They are having me come in for my next cycle's day 3.  My husband did his thing and it wasn't nearly as traumatic as I feared it might be.  We also make jokes about it pretty  regularly, which has been pretty fun for me.  I have my HSG scheduled for Thursday, and honestly, I'm nervous.  I'm trying not to read too much about it, but that's not going so well for me so far.  I'm also hoping that the dye will magically clear my tubes and we'll get pregnant this month.  Because that's how my mind works.

But, because of the HSG test being scheduled so far out, I haven't sex in over a month.  And. It. Is. Rough!  It was also hard to know that I was ovulating and couldn't even try to get her fertilized.  Also, this meant that I wouldn't get pregnant in 2013, and that was a hard pill to swallow.

I haven't written anything since my first post because I've been wrestling with whether I want this to be a public blog or not.  I originally signed up for it with my regular email address, but I started to feel uncomfortable about friends or family stumbling upon it.  So, I created a new email, attached it to the blog and removed my actual email.  Maybe that will change some day, but for now, I like the idea of having an anonymous space to say what I want about this journey.

So, Happy New Year!  2013 out!